it had been so long since i blogged le. suddenly got this feeling to blog. it had always been inside my heart for a long long time. going to explode le.... i cant tell my frenz.... really they will sure socld miz for sure!!! that is CONFIRM!!! i noe what they are going to about say me... but i really got no choice, it feeling and fated that are playing trick on me.
Tears nearly flow out of my eyes when i read. I dun't know where i have make the correct choice of choosing him over my him. My feeling or him so SUDDENLY fade off. To me, now he is just like any other friend that i have. My love for him seem to be gone..... ever since he start ignoring me and dun care abt miz.. everything is gone. ever since that day when he say he wan to break up with miz, I not as close to him as we used to be. From dec until now, it had been fading TOO fast. why? what happen to us? aren't u say that we will be together for as long as we live??? but now everything seem so fade le. i did my utmost part to save our relationship but what had he done? nothing!!!. at all. when he is happy then he come and find miz. When he is not... he just don't care about me. WTH!!! In a relationship it take two hand to claps. Why must i be the only one trying to save the relationship when he is doing nothing at all? izzit unfair to me? And ya he still can say he think we got no future together and i am better else with someone else!!! dotz dotz... i really got no other comment le. when the holidays come i think we will not even contact each other ba. i got my own thing to do and you got your. Just hope that u are happy with all those decision that you had make.
Now.... someone is wooing me, hmmmm ya i should be damn happy. cos he is that type of guy that i like. crappy, fun loving and eveything else. we are in the same course, same class before and now same FYP team. He give miz the everything that i wan even those that HE cannot give me. Everytime i went out with him there is always he will do to make miz smile. He love to see i smile and giggle. Really that kind of big wide smile that i longed smile. He say i look cute and adorable when i give that wide smile on my face. BUT since that day when i accidently opened his history and saw his ex girlfriend blog (sorry to you if u noe who u are, i doesn't it). I was really touched by how much hi ex love him. i read her previous post, and tears just flowed down my cheeks. Seriously, i dun now what the real reason to their break up. Part of my heart really wan HE to go back to his ex. The other part.... i dun noe!!!
P.S if YOU really happen to read it, (i noe u got ur ways to find online) i really hope u can patch up with ur ex. I think she really love u alot. She still like you alot and she will do anything for your sake!!!. izzit it a pity that u all broke up just because of her brother? Both of u got the same hobbies~sailing ya? why must the both of u all sad? and ended to be known as "FRIENDS"???
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