i cant zzz again....
how???...
sorry to make you worried abt me...
sorry...
i am really sorry...
feeling hot in my body...
seem like having fever now....
but i am..
just fine..
want to be alone...
have a good rest okia...
after a long day out...
alot of things happen around me...
how i wish i could just die from this world....
no worries...
but i not tat silly... still got alot of stuff for miz to do, enjoy and relax...
talk to jasmin alot of stuff today...
me and him
and
me and HIM..
i miss HIM... loads!!!...
i wish .... i miss...
but nothing i can do rite...
jasmin asked miz...
will i go back to him again...
my mind was blocked for a while...
i really dun noe how to ans....
after awhile..
i told her no...
why?
i think i have really fallen for HIM..
that why?
i wish...
i wan to try something new instead of sticking to the old one...
but... something inside is stopping me..
but i will clear it...
it will not stopped me and HIM...
not for now...
maybe later...
i can imagine my future with HIM...
he is always there went i need HIM the most....
HIS care, Love and concern is something that not everyone have give me...
i can imagine wearing a while growns walking into the church with HIM..
HE holding my hand and me holding the flower with the other hand...
i can imagine we exchanging rings in front of the father....
and say "i DO"
having a small family with HIM...
HE will be looking after the kids and me slacking at the sofa...
whahah..
or i can make chocolater and baked cookies for them to eat....
hmmm
it sound like a perfect family...
i think i think too much le....
DIE... how ???
i miss HIM
for him.... he and muz be enjoying his life now...
who noe he may not even think about me at this moment....
while...
i wish i can see HIM now...
but i cant...
sat ba...
2 days..
wont be long though...
haiz...