MY ULCERS IS KILLING ME!
i got 2 freaking big ulcers on my same lip
it's killing me..
Pain for 5 days and still counting
tried all sort of methods
but it doesn't seem to help at all...
it spolit my mood for the whole damn week

Moreover this week just doess't seem to turned out fine to me.. get scolded by my FYP supervisor which made miz dropped my tears in front of him (oh gosh!), submitted my FYP reflection journal and evaluation. The question: what i had contributed to the project to this date?. Honestly, my answer was nothing. Been mending with the 2 stupid board for the past 10 weeks. Wired and unwired had become a daily neccessity for project day.The wavefrom tat we going to get just doesn't seem correct to my supervisor. he is a highly demanding person which make sometime felt very stressed on project day. At time i really dun now what he expectation is and what is asking us to find out. My engineering basic are "normal" meaning that i just know the basic of it and not so much into depth about the topics, which explained why i seldom answered his question whenever his touched on out software side. The other 2 members are definetly smarter den me, which make miz sometime feel unwanted or begin "extra". They are clever and harworking, something which i must agreed with that whole heartedly. With FYP assement coming up on the 15th week of school, it just added stressed to my burden. I wonder what i going to say on that day itself or what i going to put on my ppt slide about what i had done and how am i going to explain it???...

My elective module today
Consumer psychology
factors tat influences one's buying decision...
zzzz
quite related to me though
but it's confusing
all the damn chim English word...
zzzz.. sianz
so decided to skip the lesson next week
gonna have a break
haha..
my team is not coming..
syasya is not coming; sending her brother off to NS
O_X will not be coming too; he going for sailing competition
so i dun see the need to come
whahaha…
since they are always the few tat contributed to our ppt
the rest… SIANZ ah……
lol..
so it miz self declared holiday!
and O_X is bringing out to sea again!
=))

Went to watch Transformers with O_X today at cine
Caught my brother with his GF!
lolx..
so qiao!
oKia about the show..
it nice! but more for watching at the cinema cos the sound effect is damn good..
and it worth the weekend ticket price too..
cos it freaking 2hrs++
lolx...
den... when paragon for soup before heading home...
=))

My plans for weekend..
tml; lunching with O_X before my work at 3pm
sun; cycling date with E44B

My thought……
**Sometime I wish I can turn back time, to when I can learn to control my temper and my stubbornness. I know my temper and my stubbornness was real bad at times and times when I don't feel like talking to anyone~ even to you. I wish I had learnt some anger management stuff, so that I wont say and do those things to hurt you in the begin which eventually lead to all those bad and unhappy stuffs that had happened to you. You said it fine with you and I wasn't the one to be blame. But somehow the guilt inside me still seems so strong. Whenever I hurt you, the "guilt" just came into my mind, thinking what if tat day I had learnt to control my temper, will all this thing ever happened? If it wasn't me, maybe you still can do thing freely without any worries but now it couldn’t happened anymore. You said I was your lucky charm, but somehow I think that I am always the one tat bring harm to you, making you unhappy and most importantly, making you can't do the thing you loved the most ~sailing. You said it alright with you, but i can see the disappointment you had in your eyes. Later in the morning you will be going to collect your x-ray film and doctor is going to see you... Hope it nothing bad ya? Please be something good!=)) LURVES


take care
ciaos`

=))

*18 days to O_X 22nd bday
*LURVES O_X =))